Friday, May 7, 2010
Dying >.<
I've started work for 2 weeks alr. And I can say it has been the toughest. Work is not as fun as I expected.
Well, I could say I only love the part where I get to meet my friends! Heh! Financial planning is not easy. Most people around my age would think that it's still early or it anything such as critical illness, disability, accident, hospitalisation wont happen (cos we are young). I dunno how to bring to their urgency about this, as it's really scary if it really happens and you're caught unaware.
Probably, because of my personal exp, that's y I really 'feel' it. My dad has heart attack and kidney failure beginning of last year. Today, he went hospital again due to a lump in his gum (I hope it's not cancerous). It made me feel really helpless about what's gonna happen. Plus, my dad is not covered by insurance, cos it's alr too late. We're paying $1450 at least just for dialysis, not including medication and transportation costs. Cos of this, I'm going into financial planning, instead of Ech. I seriously want my mum to retire soon. I know her knees are going to give away soon climbing 2 storeys to her office everyday. I dunno how long our finances can fund these health issues.
First, I need to learn and train about product knowledge and exams (which I have passed).
Second, I need to learn to handle rejections (which I know I can't). Life is not that easy (Izzah, 2010). I do wanna meet people with the heart to help them, it is not about selling products! Probably it's the stigma of the profession, that I get rejections. I certainly do hope that I don't lose my friends cos of my profession. This has led me into a daily emotional status.
I learnt something about myself through the DISC test which I did that I'm a counsellor pattern. WHY! I dislike it! Cos why do I always live for others and care more about others than myself. I was told I need to be more task oriented rather than being too concern about people's feelings. I dun wanna become selfish:(
yet, I need to do what I need to do, which is to get my quota of people to meet every week. Moreover, most of my friends are either in NS, not yet working, overseas.. where can I find ppl to meet. How? Save me God. I'm so burdened!
Third, I need to learn how to do a proper presentation and e-sub. Kinda dislike admin side of the job too.
There's lots I need to breakthrough and overcome.
I don't wanna feel like out of control and helpless.
ARGH!
